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by **Ryan** » Wed Feb 25, 2004 9:07 pm

1 hour remaining.. :oops:

im such a wreck, im counting down to my doom/happiness, who wouldve thought, how embarrassing :oops:

by **Ryan** » Wed Feb 25, 2004 10:23 pm

apparently she just wasnt interested any more, but i dont feel the need for despair after talking to you guys. Thanks you guys, you talked me through it before it happened. i think she entered this relationship compulsively which led to her thinking about it when she caught up with herself. She just didnt feel it anymore... probably the fault of long distance, and even though every detail of our life we had in common and everything matched so perfectly im not going to fuss over this relationship, nor am i going to have another one for a long time. thanks again for your help guys, i really mean it

Ok so now where do i turn, i have lived in RI all my life and i cant see myself with any of the snobby stuck up druggy alchy people in my school, i know them all or knew them at some point and i cant see myself with a single one of them.. there is a select few but even they are taken or i couldnt really see myself with them, maybe college, far away from here? im not any where near ready for another relationship, i just wnat to know where do i go next...
and your honest oppinion, no pity comments, after all this do you think im a good guy, do you think there will be someone else, even if she isnt in my school?

my new aim profile, personalized for her...
No, dont go... not feeling it?
not to be mean but... Then you never really loved me. Love is the feeling of butterflies towards the person whenever you think of them or hear their name and to see their laughter gives a feeling of fulfilled hapiness. Love sticks with you through the thick and the thin, you cant just say you don't love someone any more, and if you can, then you never loved them from the start, but it was just a mere ploy to pull them in and get them to trust you faster, don't impulsively say you love someone and tell them youll love them forever, because if they truly love you back you will just break their heart. Next time think before you make that scar decision, next time think before you make another scar.

by **Zooooot** » Wed Feb 25, 2004 11:08 pm

Remember dude, Rhode Island is the smallest state in the union, so don't be suprised if the right girl is in one of the other 49 states

Seriously, just go with it. Don't worry about it, and you might find that the right girl will just bump into you.

by **Serena20986** » Wed Feb 25, 2004 11:51 pm

Believe me, there are TONS of other girls out there for you. I know it doesn't seem like it right now, but there are. Like I was telling tulatin in another post, the most likely time when you'll find someone is when you aren't looking for one. Join some clubs at your school. Get out and meet new and interesting people. Like someone once said....the best things in life happen when you aren't expecting them. I know that's probably hard to fathom right now. I've been there. To the point where you think nothing good is ever going to happen to you again and you think you're all alone in the universe. But ya know what? It does get better and it will get better. You'll find someone who may have gone through the exact thing that you are and they've been waiting for you this whole time. You just have to stick through it. And don't forget man, we're all here to talk to ya. You can talk to me anytime you'd like. I have AIM and MSN. So you can talk to me on there too if you'd like. I've been through an ordeal like this. I got my man back, but I know exactly the feelings and the thoughts that are going through your head right now. At least...I think i do.

Anyway, we're here to talk whenever you need us. Just don't forget that. :lol:

by **Ryan** » Thu Feb 26, 2004 2:20 am

Thanks guys, your awesome. Im going to go far far away when i go to college and meet all new people, maybe ill bump into her there, who knows! i sure as hell dont, oh well i told my ex i wanted to be friends still because i still care for her even though she doesnt for me, im not going to talk to her for like a month though to get it out of my head that there is no more strong attachments to this girl, dont want to accidentally say i love you when i hang up the phone

that would be pretty akward, even though she has found a place in my heart :roll:

im over it i swear! is this denial?

by **Serena20986** » Thu Feb 26, 2004 4:46 am

It could be. But I think you're trying to make yourself get over it...even if you're not ready to. I think you have a good attitude about it though. Just do different things and try not to think about her. If she's already moved on, then you should too. There isn't really anything that you can do about it, so you have to find a way to get around it. If that makes sense. :roll:

by **Xojid** » Thu Feb 26, 2004 10:06 am

Those who dare to love dare to bleed. Those who love deepest bleed most.

I believe that we, as young adults, have never learned how to love properly. What examples do we have? Hollywood? Love'em and leave'em? We are preached the values of instant gratification with no regard for other people or our own futures.

"If it feels good, do it."

Yeah, right. I don't believe in easy. If it was easy, what value is there?

I think that love is a choice. Granted, there are certain emotions that accompany it; that, for lack of a better word, are called love. I enjoy that "butterflies in the stomach" or "heart-skips-a-beat" feeling I get whenver I see someone I care for. But, mature love chooses to love somebody.

That's just me, though. Take it for what it's worth to you.

by **Ryan** » Thu Feb 26, 2004 12:06 pm

Ok, i thought i could get over this real quick, but it turns out i was just so lost and confused that once sat down and thought about it, she will always hold a place in my heart, she is like family to me and i am but a person she knows and thats where the pain lies. Its like a mother son relationship and the mother says im sorry i dont like you, just leave me alone. I think this is going to build up for a while and explode before i can start recovery. Wasnt feeling it... she never loved me, it was probably just an obsession to her if she could just end it so easily like that
I feel like their is no absolute definition for love, when your in love you know it, if you question if your in love, then your probably not.

by **Serena20986** » Thu Feb 26, 2004 8:54 pm

I think you might be right. If she could leave you so quickly, maybe she really didnt love you in the first place. Or maybe she was just scared. Maybe she did love you, but she didnt want that in her life at the moment. You never know i guess. I know, youre like going over the situation in your head and youre thinking, If I had done this maybe things would have been different. Or if I had just done this, things would have been better. But believe me, from experience, that never helps. It wasnt you who broke it off....it was her. And I guess only she will know what the REAL problem was. :roll:

by **TakMusashi** » Fri Feb 27, 2004 1:38 am

Serena20986 wrote:the most likely time when you'll find someone is when you aren't looking for one. Join some clubs at your school. Get out and meet new and interesting people. And don't forget man, we're all here to talk to ya. You can talk to me anytime you'd like. I have AIM. So you can talk to me on there too if you'd like. I've been through an ordeal like this.

I know we've already talked a lot on AIM, but don't hesitate to IM me whenever, for whatever. Like I said too, college is comming up. Maybe you should look for somewhere out of state? There are also lots of colleges out there with fun clubs and intramurals. ^_^ Keep your head up!

by **Ryan** » Fri Feb 27, 2004 3:09 pm

ya, i guess i know that ill be ok later, but i dont know, i just feel real lonely, only time will heal the pain i guess

by **Ryan** » Sat Feb 28, 2004 12:52 am

hehe, thanks dude, i sure hope so!

by **Ryan** » Sat Feb 28, 2004 12:23 pm

ok since we are friends now or whatever i am contemplating on whether or not i should call. I cant stop wondering how she is! what do you think? too early?

by **Serena20986** » Sat Feb 28, 2004 11:37 pm

Yeah. I don't think it would really hurt anything. It will let her know that you still care about her. Just don't seem all desperate or anything, cause I think that might freak her out. Just call and tell her that you were just wondering how she was doing. See what happens. :wink:

by **Ryan** » Sun Feb 29, 2004 1:15 am

ok guys, im guessin thats a definite no! i sent her an e-mail like 5 days ago that said...

not... feeling it? not to be mean but... Then you never really loved me. Love is the feeling of butterflies towards the person whenever you think of them or hear their name and to see their laughter gives a feeling of fulfilled hapiness. Love sticks with you through the thick and the thin, you cant just say you don't love someone any more, and if you can, then you never loved them from the start, but it was just a mere ploy to pull them in and get them to trust you faster, don't impulsively say you love someone and tell them youll love them forever, because if they truly love you back you will just break their heart. Next time think before you make that scar decision, next time think before you make another scar. [girl], you almost sent a decent person over the edge, be glad im sensible and didn't kill myself, and the same goes for ryan south. I'm not taking a shot at you i just don't want to see anyone else getting hurt.

and in reply i recieved...

A Nasty Message (I'll pm it if you really want it, probly not)

So i sent her this without a reply yet...

I told you i wasnt trying to be mean [girl]... Im so sorry... i thought you would understand but i guess not. Well, if you ever need to talk to me ever again in your life ill keep my cell phone number the same for as long as i live. im sorry, i just wanted to understand you and why this ended, why the sudden hatred.

Yeah, life is now hated, specifically by me. The girl i'm trying so hard not to love now hates me. She was so nice and i brought this out of her, i feel like such sh*t now

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